I say another night writing out my thoughts 
“Am I doing what I’m supposed to be doing?” My stomach almost in knots 

“God, you’re providing but not in the way I expected”

“Is there a step I may have neglected?”
Life is a whirlwind 

Things seem unpinned 

Is there a method to what seems like madness?

More often then not I’m seeing sadness 
I feel like I’m staring at pieces to a puzzle 

But they seem unlink with no place to nuzzle 

Am I supposed to pick up those pieces 

Or wait on God’s mercy that never ceases 
I don’t feel like there is a step to take 

But to be faithful and let God mold and make 

But what about the pressure to be and do more?

Is that from me? Or is it something I should explore?
Life is confusing and chaotic too!

Sometimes I wish God and I could have a face to face rendezvous.

One where we could hash out our next direction 

And decide together what would be the best selection. 
I know God is here and He is in charge 

And He is the one who gives the discharge 

But it’s not always easy to not know the right answer

But I should trust him otherwise worry becomes like cancer
So into your hands I commit my spirit 

And my requests at your alter, I’ll leave it 

Help me to be faithful, true, kind and caring 

And help me to always be one whose sharing. 
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.

Proverbs 3:5-8