(Before I start this, I am preaching to myself. Writing is my outlet and how I process things)
As much as I say I’d like to live by faith and not by sight. I have come to realize there are times I don’t really!
I was on the phone with a friend not too long ago. This friend and I had been in similar situations at one point in time. After my friend shared an incredible opportunity he had just received he asked, “What are you doing now?” *pause*
Maybe you are not being questioned about your future by a friend, but maybe you’re questioning yourself, your journey, and dare I say: God! Maybe your questioning sounds like this: “Does my life even matter?”, “Does being a mom even matter. I’ve cleaned these floors a hundred times, and for what?” , “I’ve been serving customers for 15 years and all I have is a pat on the back” , “I’ve been faithful to my husband, even though I don’t feel like I receive the support I need, why should I keep trying?” , “What am I even waiting for anyways?” , “Am I walking in faith for no reason? Or am I being irresponsible?”
Maybe God hasn’t told you the next step OR God has changed your path and it’s not what you anticipated. Instead of joy you are frustrated. Instead of answers you have questions. Instead of comfort you feel a little out of control.
Maybe you thought something would have come along by now, or you’d have a husband by now. Or that you’d receive more appreciation for your hard work. I am noticing that saying I want to live by faith and not by sight means not having all the answers. Do I really want not having answers? Especially when a friend asks you: What are you up to? Or what’s next? Or what are your goals, passion, aspiration?
To be completely honest, I’ve had a hard time not knowing even some of the answers let alone all the answers, but I believe that is living by faith, and the minute we start doubting is the minute we will start sinking and crash!
When I got off the phone with my friend- I did have a crash. I thought, ” I don’t even know what I’m doing” But I HAD to REMIND myself that GOD DOES! Am I okay with God knowing and not me? Or do I really want to live by sight? If I lived by sight- I wouldn’t be pleasing God. It says in Hebrews 11:6 that without faith it is impossible to please God.
So whatever your life entails: children, a 9-5 job, cleaning houses, defending a client, monitoring traffic, or in the waiting, we all can choose to live by faith or by sight. Maybe there is a decision you need to make. Or maybe being still and knowing He is God. Pray and ask God to guide you and do what you believe He is telling you. It may make NO SENSE to anyone else, but our ways are not God’s ways! At the end of the day are we pleasing God or man? I hope that it’s God, but if it’s God is often comes with a price from man.
The man or woman who is wholly or joyously surrendered to Christ can’t make a wrong choice – any choice will be the right one.” – A. W. Tozer
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. Proverbs 3:5-7
Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father. Colossians 3:17