I wrote this poem because I needed to remind myself of who God is and what my purpose is today, this week and the for rest of my life. I feel like I’ve been in an extended waiting period. I’ve done all that I know to do and now I need to wait. It’s tempting to try and make things happen on my own, but God in His graciousness reminds me that it’s Him that I need to seek and pursue.

Last week it dawned on me that I’m projecting my humanity and fallibility on God. I’m the one who forgets people’s birthdays, or forgets to call people, or forgets the promises of God. He never forgets about us. This poem is written from my struggle to wait and remember that God is God and there is no other.

This life is full of the unexpected.
Sometimes you may feel abandoned and unprotected.
But does that mean I’m not still here?
Does it mean I’ve disappeared?

Never will I leave or forsake you.
That is my promise to you.
Remember I’m the one who knit you together in your mother’s womb?
When you needed salvation I died and then rose from the tomb?

I know when you sit and when you stand.
Your name is engraved on the palm of my hand.
I made the earth and named every single star.
And yet I hold every single one of your tears in a jar.

I know you get tired of waiting to see things come about.
But while you’re waiting you won’t lack and go without.
You’re weary to see things happen now.
But following me means not looking back after you’ve put your hands on the plow.

Remember life here is not primarily about people and things.
I can give you all the things you say you want but happiness it won’t bring.
I AM your great reward. But in my faithfulness I will richly reward.

Let’s wait and live life together, dear one.
Because this life I have already won.
I can show you things you’d never know, and share riches untold.
Hold on to me, and let me shape you. Hold on and let me mold.

I promise it won’t be easy, but there will be adventure.
I’ll give you the boldness to go places you wouldn’t venture.
This life may not look like you thought.
Yet at the end of your life, you’ll have what matters, because it’s the eternal you sought.

“…Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said… 42 But one thing is needful: and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:39, 42

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