“Oh, oh, hey Ms. Christi” I heard a sweet little voice say; knowing immediately who had greeted me. I turned and said, “Hey, Buddy, How are you?”
I currently work at an after school program. We have roughly 35 kids on our roster, but average about 20 kids per day. I know you’re not supposed to have favorites, but it’s hard not to.
This kid, who I often refer to as Buddy, has taught me a lot.
Every day he comes in he almost always says, “Oh, oh, hey Ms. Christi”. Although he can bring challenges (what kid doesn’t), he reminded me of an important lesson.
You see, he is autistic. He spends a lot of his time talking to himself, and living in a world that is his own. One day, I heard him say, “You failed, you’re stupid”.
Buddy tends to act out what has happened to him. You quickly learn what type of day he is having if you listen to what he says. So, when I heard him say, “you’re stupid” I realized there is not much difference between someone who is autistic, and someone who isn’t.
The difference is those who are autistic verbalized their thoughts. Those who aren’t tend to keep their thoughts to themselves. I don’t know about you, but I have called myself stupid more times that I can count. I have said that I’m a failure more often than I care to say.
I realize there are other differences, but when it comes to our identities, we are not that different. I read a quote that, upon reading it, brought me to tears. It says this:
In this journey called life we all tend to get tied up with what we do, how much we make, how we live, or how we are measuring up.
I read an article that said if we were measuring Jesus’ life by our view of “success” His life would be a complete failure. His family didn’t understand Him. His disciples abandoned Him. He had no place to lay His head. And to top it all off, He died a criminal’s death.
But, through in His father’s eyes, He was a complete success. He conquered death. He broke the curse of sin. He brought reconciliation. He exemplified love.
Jesus didn’t have a 401k. He didn’t have a home. He did not own his own transportation. He even had to borrow a mule to ride into the city on Palm Sunday. He was a King without glory, without honor, without “worldly” means.
Yet, you and me, we were and are the object of His affection. He sacrificed all the “pleasures of this world” for you and me. He allowed Himself to be rejected so we could be accepted. He allowed Himself to be viewed as “guilty” so that we would be exonerated from our sin. He became despised (in the eyes of the world) so that we would know we are His treasure. So, Instead of self rejection, we could hear that we are His Beloved. We are His Delight (Isaiah 62:4).
So when you and I face the temptation to say to ourselves, “You’re a failure” remember:
It is not about what we do.
It is not about how old we are, how young we are.
It is not about what others say.
It is not even what we say.
It only matters what He says.
My Friends, He says we’re enough. When He said “It is finished”, We, as His Children, became flawless.
He doesn’t see you for who this world says you are. He sees you as complete in Him. He sees you as His Masterpiece – His poem.
You are not a failure. You are not stupid. You are His Beloved and nothing you do or don’t do will ever change that!
LOVE THIS!! My goodness, I can so relate to most if not all of what was said. Thank you for this. Such an amazing reminder, I always thought self-reflection was a good thing, guess it isn’t haha! I’ve seen myself as a failure so much it’s ridiculous, but like you said its not about what I’ve done, its about what He did. Thanks again 🔥🙏🏽🙌🏽
Glad it encouraged you! You are definitely not a failure 😃 although the enemy likes to convince us that we are. Thanks for being a part of my journey :)!
And thank you for being a part of my journey as well 🙂